Dear Diary

Dear diary
this world is over taking me
like a wave , taking me away
i´am sinking deep
i´am standing at the bottom
of it´ sea
and i can´t breath
Dear diary

Dear diary
i´am loosing my way
i lost control today
the anger and the hatred
got the best of me
dear diary

Dear diary
i don´t know what to do
when i look i can´t see through
the fog
dear diary does it ever stop,, the rain?
or does it forever fall
i hope it dry´s soon
the nights to black
i can´t even see the moon

Dear diary
the sun shone today for awhile
and for the first time for so long i smiled
yes because of her
as all the other times
she seems to be the only one
to make the sun shine

Dear diary
i hold on to the edge
ready to let go
fall into the abyss
i don´t care that i don´t know
what comes after
i know it´s stupid, i´am aware
one last laughter, take care

dear diary
she took my hand
she saved me
from the darkness
led me into light
dear diary
i think everything
is going to be allright
for the first time
for along time
i have faith
i was touched by an angel
she gave me grace
and i believe
when i look at her face
, into her eyes
just the knowing
that she raises inside
not like a wave this time
like a sun rising into
the darkness
making it it´s own
filling it with light
dear diary i´am home
and the smile will
be everlasting this time.

it is not a believe
when you know.